Australia Day is over!

Wow I did not realise it had been 6 days since I last blogged on here... I think because the pre-season tasks have started on the 12wbt and I have been reading the forums and writing on there time slipped away!

My kids have been back to school this week... My eldest daughter started highschool on Tuesday, it was harder dropping her off to a new school with knowing she knew no-one then leaving her on her first day of school 8 years ago! But she had a great day and is excited about the year ahead.

Yesterday was Australia Day and we spent time with my brother, sister in law and their 4 precious kids. My hubby was doing electrical work there so we took the kids to the pool.

Anyway.. I am feeling a little numb this morning, I have just watched and completed Task 2 in the 12wbt and I am now quite emotional. It is one thing to know what has always held me back from achieving my weightloss and health goals but it is another to know how to change it. My mind tells me things I find hard to even admit to myself at this stage let alone sharing it.

I have to work on my self talk...

So right here I'll tell myself...

Karen you are a princess, created by God for purpose. You can achieve all things!
I am healthy
I have energy
I am fit
I do make right choices with food
I will achieve my goals

I think that is enough for now...

Saturday is here..

The weekend has arrived, the last few days have been busy, busy with work, taking my kids out for their last Friday of school holidays! Thursday I didn't get to exercise so I worked harder at the gym yesterday to make up for it a little and I am off to the gym this morning for a cycle class to kick off the weekend on a positive note. I have given in to temptation a few times over the last few days which I am not happy about but I didn't over eat the tempting food I just wish I had avoided it all together. Today is a new day and other than eating some chocolate and some cheesecake I have eaten a healthy balance of fruit, veg proteins and carbs!
Yesterday at the gym I did some walking around with 2 x 10kg weights in my hand and they were really heavy and then I thought to myself I carry about 30kg's of extra weight, imagine how fantastic I will feel when I have lost it! That certainly inspires me on to reach my goal. At this stage I have not put a time frame on the length of time it will take but I know soon I have to so I "keep it real" and stop making excuses and procrastinating!

The house is very quiet, my hubby had to be up at 4.30am to head off to work all day at XXXX in Brisbane to help fix the room with all the machines that were damaged from the floods. My kids are sleeping and I am enjoying just spending time thinking about how blessed I am. I think for the last few years I have stopped believing in myself and potential. For a few years there I was so focused and driven but when I look back I think really I had just adopted other people's dreams as that is what I thought I had to do to be successful.
My weight does affect my confidence although I have worked through major self esteem issues over the last few years there is still and element of doubt due to my weight. You see I really would like to motivate people to live a healthy life... not just a healthy physical body but also a healthy soul and mind. I feel my soul is healthier I just now need my body to catch up.

So to put some of my goals on paper... I do want to always be the best wife and mother I can be, meaning that I am always loving, selfless, generous and patient with my family. I want to my children to always feel that can tell me anything and that I will always love them. My husband is the hardest working man I know and I pray that I become better at helping and encouraging him in his journey of life and that he always knows how much I adore and appreciate him.

There are so many other goals coming to mind but enough of that for now... Oh the other exciting thing is my hubby is going to do the Michelle Bridges 12wbt with me, I know that if we support each other and stay accountable it will help to move closer in our health journey!

Hubby's Birthday today!

Wow, I can't believe it's my hubby's Birthday today..this would be the 22nd Birthday since I've known him! Any way yesterday was one of those day's where nothing went to plan which is usually when I tell myself "oh it's ok to fall off the wagon, there is always tomorrow"... So the plan yesterday was I got up went for a short walk just to clear my head and off to work by 7.30am. I was going to buy my hubby's present during lunch and then arrive home by 3.30pm and be at the gym by 5pm to do a circuit class followed by a cycle class... So that was the plan! Unfortunately my hubby had to go and get some steel taken out of his eye at the PA hospital which I went with him and because of Brisbane's floods the hospital was very busy so we waited nearly 4 hours, didn't get home till 5pm so decided to go out last night for his Birthday with the kids.

So..the good news is I had to buy lunch and made great choices...same with dinner and I did have a small bit of my hubby's chocolate in the evening which was not needed but controlled. I was disappointed abour notbeing able to exercise but TODAY is a new day, the time is 5.09am and I am about to got to the gym before work!

Feeling great!

Day 1 comes to an end!

Well, I made it through day 1 of keeping it real! I had a good day, I just wish temptation would not strike so often. Firstly my in laws came over with some finger buns (fresh and smelt amazing) but I hardly even looked at them and I find if I just get through watching my kids take the first bite then I'm ok! It was a busy afternoon with running kids around which then having to come home and to cook dinner after 7pm is draining and painstaking to say the least (I am not a kitchen lover)! But I had planned ahead and thought about what would be healthy and quick and got some things ready before I left home. That made it easier and I must remind myself of that in the weeks and years to come. My hubby got chocolates from his parents for his Birthday this week... This was a challenge, I found myself saying "oh you have been so good today one or two won't hurt" then I thought about how long it takes to burn 200 calories, and that this is not my junk meal day (after all it is only the beginning of the week!) So I did sit down and have a cuppa with my hubby and even though watching him eat the chocolate in front of me was hard for about 1 minute after that I felt so great for not having any.  This is the feeling I need to  remember when I am tempted in the future... Anyway, I feel good, energised and proud which is much nicer than feeling bloated and guilty. Bring on tomorrow world, I am ready for another day of Health!

Day 1 of Keeping it Real...

 I decided on my walk this morning that I really need to write down my journey of becoming the new me! Now I wish this was the first journey I had started but the reality is that my health and weight loss journey has been something that has been up and down since I was 8 years old. Over the last 28 years I have been successful many a times in losing weight but just as successful in gaining it back plus some more. I know all the things to do and even enjoy exercise and eating well... I just do not do it consistently and have not really adopted all the changes in my life to "make it a lifestyle"... It is not all bad I have been able to keep my weight relatively the same for a number of years but that really is not good enough when honestly I need to lose at least 30kgs! So this blog is for me to write is all down in an attempt to be accountable to myself... I have tried to be healthy for others but that has not worked so I am doing this for me...for my healthy life! All excuses are out of the way, I have a nano ipod to listen to music while I exercise, I have plenty of recipes to make healthy meals... I will receive my new Thermomix soon to really only ever eat whole foods and I have a heart rate monitor to measure how many calories I burn... So this morning I have exercised for 45mins and burnt 300 calories